back to regular programming

enough. i've had enough. enough of this adolescent drivel. enough of this waiting and hoping and wanting and yearning and looking. it's not there. it never was.

i've had it.

you may say ...

... that it's so easy to laugh with me
... that we understand each other so well we can almost read each other's minds
... that what we have is comfortable and right
... that our children will have my art and your sight
... that we have the rest of our lives to go on road trips together
... that there is no need to tiptoe because we already fit perfectly
... that there is an "us"

but you know what?

no thanks. this is a risk i took and no way on earth will it work.
i've had it. i've had enough. better to cut out while i am still whole.

please make sure your pipes are in better working order this time.
and don't ever watch me with the wind again. ever.

no more drama in this life.
back to regular programming.

how do i like thee? let me count the ways

I like the way

you order me dessert
you make sure we get to talk everyday.
you include me in your life, by introducing me to your sisters, friends, and chickens
you invite my friends to come over and play poker
you share your music with me
you watched a play because I told you about it
you say I don’t know.
you laugh, because your laugh fills up the whole room
you blow on my tea to make sure it isn't too hot for me to drink
you got me a book because we both like the same writer
you watch me sleep
you touch my hair when you kiss me
you walked in my garden with me
you enjoy coffee and insist i try a different flavor
you nibble on my arm and fingers
you put your whole heart in every hug.

I don’t like the way you’re going to leave before you realize how much you are loved.